Da shit that makes me LAUGH!

Yea yea yea it's been a good minute I know. To be honest, I didn't have anything to talk about so why bore any of you. Of course I commented on many of ya'llz thought provoking post. Anywho, in the past couple of days I've come across some things that made me laugh. Either they'll make you laugh also or have you lookin at me like "Damnit, you're an ass!" Either way, here we go.

So, everyday at lunch time me and PG (Pussy Galore: My Fag Hag) take a lil stroll around the city to converse about what's going on in our lives. Personally, I take the opportunity to marvel at the handsome men wondering around the city. She, in turn forces me to accompany her shopping for whatever her heart desires. On Monday we stumbled into a boutique to purchase some panties for her and wallaaaa...

Now lol...I've NEVER seen panties this big! Yes I know there are large women out there but this shit cracked me up! Just to keep things in perspective, PG is about 5'8, 150 lbs (If I'm off PG, don't hit me...she's a Trenton, NJ 'I'll fuck you up' type a chick!) girl. But yo, we BOTH were DYING to see panties this big. Funny thing is when I exclaimed "I didn't know they made those that big!" she responded with "Well, did you think big chicks just walked around free ballin it?" Chicks wit ballz...no comment LoL. But yea, that made me chuckle...n chuckle...n, well ya'll get the point. What made the shit even funnier was when the employee asked us "Are ya'll finding what you need?" I responded "That and so much more!"

**Disclaimer: I don't hate on big people like that, but GOT DAMN! Dem some HUGE Panties!!***

Needless to say, we've (or I...hehe) have devised a plan for a friend of hers for Christmas (I'll update ya'll on that later)

Next, during todays walk I was shocked by this image. I know people are lazy but I mean damn. Conversely, I do applaud Duane Reade for promoting increased consumer spending during this recession that I have chosen NOT to particpate in. I give you pix number two:

In the words of Mr. Jones "Now waaaaiiiiiiiiiiitttttt...." Never in my life have I seen a basket on wheels! This shyt was hilarious to me today. I mean I guess the convenience of it all is kool but damn... Ya gotta love Duane Reade. They said "We want you to shop, and if that means you don't want to carry all your items, just pull that shit behind you. I LOVE IT! Iono.

Well here's a lil light hearted post from me. Nothing serious going on over here but it was time for an update. Everyone be safe!

~Damnit!

Angels, Watching Over ME...

Given everything that's going on around the world and w/in our country, it is often good to sit back and be appreciative for the little things. Over the years I have realized that I am immensely blessed. Life could be so much worse but it's not and sometimes a blessing will come out of no where making me feel like there truely are angels watching over me.

Today was no exception. I woke up today feeling like I needed to go shopping. Not for cloths or food but for some things that my apt has been lacking Now anyone that knows me understands two things: 1) I hate shopping & 2) I am not good at interior decorating. It's just not my fortay. After consulting wit my boy Mr. Jones I narrowed down what I wanted to purchase. As I explained to Jones "Baaaaaaaaaby, I need a list cause when ~Damnits! wallet see's the light of day, his Visa takes a beating!" LoL. All that said, the story really is what happened at checkout.

So here I am after cruising the store n slapping my sticky fingers everytime it grabbed something that wasn't on the coveted list of necessities, I walked towards the register line and this seasoned African American woman. She gave off the aura of a wise aunt as she greated me "Hey young man. How are you?" I responded "Well Imma be depressed once you finish ringing up these items."

Aunt BB&B: Oh no baby don't be depressed. Praise God that you can afford to purchase these things because there are people who can't..."

DMT: That's true.

Aunt BB&B: Do you have a coupon?

DMT: No I don't. I didn't know you could use coupons in here...

Aunt BB&B: Of course you can! Imma find you a coupon baby.

So as she rang up my items to which doing some rough math in my head I estimated that I had easily spent $150, Aunt BB&B managed to not find the bar code on one of my items and decided that she wouldn't charge me for it (Price: $16...questionable judgement but I did my part). Then after ringing up my items, she made it her duity to find me a coupon which gave me 20% off my total purchase price. When it was time to swipe my debit card, the final cost went from $150 to $99 n some change. The register read 'APPROVED' and as she handed me my bags, Aunt BB&B exclaimed "Ok baby there you go. You have a BLESSED day!" to which I responded "Thank you ma'am. You do too." In our 5 minute interaction, she became the Angel that assisted me in staying w/in the budget I had set for todays shopping excursion.

Thanks Aunt BB&B!

~Damnit!

Why don't I have a man...?

- Spinach Salad with hard boiled eggs, tomato's and cucumbers

- Home made mashed potato's sprinkled with some minced garlic & pepper topped with Country Crock butter

- Fresh green beans wit a hint of butter for flavor.

- Tender BBQ Ribs seasoned close to perfection (My momz are slightly better then mine lol)

- *Bonus* Deviled eggs because I love them and just in case I need a late Sunday night football snack!

All of this and it's just me. Imagine if it were you and I...


~Damnit!

Ma Bitch has a First Name!!!

As mentioned in a previous post, after numerous years of Sprint pimpin ya boy ~Damnit!, ya boy having been disgusted with the performance of my old phone, finally purchased a Blackberry. The majority (roughly 85%) of it on Sprints dime. However, much like a parent of an unborn child I had no name for ma bitch (affectionately) until my boy O and I gathered for a brief pow wow and all of a sudden she was named!

O named my Blackberry 'Cran' (Due to her maroon color) and I absolutely LOVED IT! We even gave Cran some characteristics which are as follows:


- She's an old white woman with salt & pepper stringy hair
- She's from money, originally from Europe and moved to the US in 1912; she married a black man in 1923 (*Wink*) and was disowned
- Clearly she likes to get it in cause she has 11 kids!!!
- Well educated and pretty swift on (or off) her feet too lol.


Ironically, Cran shares the same life story as my Great Grandmother. Go figure...

Anway, so everyone when ya see her make sure you call ma bitch by name cause 'Cran' goes HARD! LMAO.

~Damnit!

Over/Under...

I find that the convoluted valuation with regards to the importance of sex and or intimacy w/in the gay lifestyle puzzling. Personally, I just don't understand how some people can mitigate the importance of sex in a relationship or life in general...it boggles the mind. Granted, sex isn't everything, however, it is important and can make or break a relationship.

For many moons (I won't venture to proclaim the number of years I've engaged in this lifestyle) I've conversed with individuals that proudly say that sex is "overrated". A friend and I got into such a discussion on today and I was flabbergasted at the idea that you can have a long term relationship void of intimacy or sex. Intimacy/sex plays a major roll in a partnership and if one party is not 'sexual', where does that leave the other party? Everyone wants to be wanted/desired both mentally and physically. If you want a 'friendship' type of relationship, why not just be friends. Hang out, go to the movies, dinner, etc...and be 'friends', however, to be with me on a lover level, I believe sex is important. I have a friend who was in a long term relationship for a half decade and didn't have that deep bond that would have been garnered thru intimacy because they didn't engage in sex. When they did, it was usually with a third party. The relationship proved to be tasking and ultimately faultered because the individuals didn't have that deep connection. Allow me to retort, great 'friends', failed lovers.

All that said, do you agree with the idea that sex is overrated...? Could you be in a sexless relationship? Just to be clear, my reference to a 'relationship' is in the context of lovers, not 'friends/associates'. Have you ever been in a 'sexless relationship' and how did that experience work for you? I generally don't do solicitation and response post but I await your comments and will go against my self imposed rule and respond after gathering a varying of opinions.

One luv!

~Damnit!

Me...? Bullets

• So it's me? Isn't it always? So I'm told...
• Didn't you know it before...? Was I hiding something? Didn't think I could...
• Difficult, yes. Unapologetic, yes. ~Damnit!, yes. Phony or fickle, no...
• Can be understood with time, yes. Accepted for who I am, rarely...
• Can withdraw in a heartbeat, absolutely!
• Require much from anyone, no. Offer much to everyone, yes!
• Tired, yes.
• Loyal, undoubtedly!
• ICE COLD, yes.
• Will anyone ever be able to melt that which lies w/in me? I can't call it...
• If I allowed one to fill in those empty bullets, what would be said? Would it affect the way I feel?
• Explainations don't matter...
• Facts don't matter...
• For every beginning, there is an end...
• Who am I? O wait, I know...

~Damnit!

Missing you like CRAZY!!!

He doesn't blog, but he know's who he is...

Lets see...

Well seeing as I haven't written anything on my spot for some time, I guess I'll scribe a few words. Not much has happened tho so I felt no need to update but, here goes...

- It seems that I still got 'it'. What is 'it' you ask? Well take for instance Monday morning. I'm riding the iron horse beneath the streets of Manhattan whose services are provided by the Metropolitan Transit Authority listening to the sweet melodies of Chrisette Michelle flowing from Damita Joe. As the duece (#2 train) screeches to a halt, I swiveled sideways to allow my fellow commuters unfettered access to the exit when I feel a light but intentional tickle on the left side of my back. I turn to find this exquisite specimen of the female persuasion staring and smiling at me with her hand outstretched towards me. I look and she's holding a piece of paper. Curious, I took the paper from her and examined it to find her name and number written on it. I returned my eyes to her awaiting face all a glow with a smile and I returned the appropriate warm greeting. *STAND clear of the closing doors, please* The doors shut and my chariot rode off. I looked at the number and written on the back was "Call between 6 - 11 pm anytime. I smiled, placed the number in my pocket. Ironically, the chorus of the song I had just finished listening to said "It's like a Dreeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaamm to meeeee..." CLEARLY, I still can pull the females. LoL.

- My 'brick' (as Mr. Jones calls my cell phone) has gone far beyond being the heavy load that I was forced to tote around with me; the cost of keeping in touch. No, THIS BITCH for the past month decided that ~Damint! no longer requires the use of the 'i' button on the phone. At first it seemed the 'i' was on vacation and '5' was now playing the roll of 'i' whenever I summoned. I dealt with it for as long as I could but it was time to handle this situation. After lunch, me and my fag hag walked to the Sprint store to have the ho serviced. Upon returning I was told it could not be fixed and a new phone had been ordered. Unfortunately, the newest version of my phone. No sir, THIS will not do. I returned to the office and commenced to phone Sprint, hustled past Mrs. PCS to a live representative where I laid out what I expected my celular provider of 10 years to accomplish for me. Two and a half hours, 6 supervisors and 1 insurance representative later, my BlackBerry Curve was set to be overnighted to me for several hundred dollars less than Sprint blindly robs their 'other' customers for. It arrived Friday and I LOVE HER! She needs a name tho...haven't decided. Something that gives off the appropriate level of 'SHADE' when I speak of her in public lol. Oh, and to top it off, the replacement phone that was ordered by the sprint store will be ready for pick up on Tuesday. eBay anyone..?! LMAO!

- Thursday I went to court and got my speeding ticket reduced from '86 in a 65' and '$400 (4 pts) to a '70 in a 65' and a $106 ticket, no points. And people say that my mouth is just trouble. Law School here I come!!!

Well that's it folks. Now you know, and know is half the battle!

~Damnit!

See you when I get there...

It was 11:30 pm last night when my phone rang out, disturbing the peace of my quiet house. I rose from the bed knowing something was wrong because everyone knows when and when not to call my phone. A number came up that was somewhat familiar to me. An old friend from my past, long time no see. The voice on the other end asked how I was, to which I replied "I'm aiight. You?" to which he responded "I'm tryna maintain too."

Him: Well I don't know if you care or not but So & So passed away tonight.

DMT: Oh my God... Damn yo. Are you ok?

Him: I'm trying. I can't believe he's dead.

See me and S&S had a falling out a couple years ago. I have not spoken to or seen him during this time. From his opening statement, I gathered that S&S passed w/out knowing that I had long forgiven him for what he did to me and I held no ill will. See in my mind what was done was done. Lifes experiences are supposed to make you wiser and with that experience I learned a valuable lesson.

This morning as I did last night, I sent up a lil prayer to my fallen old friend. No one knows why God chose now to bring you home, but it is in his will that it be done. My eyes will be shut when your funeral comes, for I want to remember you as the strong MAN you were!

See you when I get there yo! You know who you are S&S!

~Damnit!

N i'M OuT DIs BIaCH!!!

Well in a couple hours I'll be on my way to tha Chi! Tryna see what it's all about na mean! I'm sure it'll be a worthwhile experience seeing as every experience DAMNIT! has anywhere is worthwhile in some form or fashion. LoL naw but Imma just get my relax on and see what there is to see. Got tha new digital too so Imma snap some pix too. Laptop will be in tow but I don't plan to be on dis biach often so I'll see ya when I see ya! Have a safe and enjoyable 4th of July. GOD BLESS AMERICA!!!

~Damnit!

FUCK ~2~ BUDDY!!!

I've never been one to divulge my sexual exploits here in Blog Universe but eh, what tha hell. I'm at work, lunch is here, I'm tired as shit (explaination below) and I am bored so here goes.

Since Saturday I've had one problem after another. Lost electricity from Saturday afternoon to Tuesday; Fridge died Tuesday so lost all food that wasn't previously lost; boss tryna fire me (that's usual for her lol). Oh, and my beloved Lakers lost but eh, Congrats to the Celts for a GREAT game! With all this crap going on, I was delighted when my cell was all a glow alerting me to a new message. Upon investigation I found it was my lil papi...Imma call him Kickz cause he's got a gazillion sneakers lol. Kickz is about my height, a taste lighter than me, slim (I love my slim boyz *Wink*), nice dick and da ass...*Sigh* (Singin) APPLE BOTTOM JEAAAANNN AND THA... ok i dont' know the words to that dumb song but you get the point.

Anywho, Kickz opens up the convo as usual:

Kickz: Ey punk... How's work?

(Sidenote, he always calls me punk since we met back around February. Ironically I become daddy when he's on his back...go figure)

DMT: Work sucks. What you up to.

Kickz: I'm off today. I kinda want you LoLz

DMT: O werd...

Kickz: Yea man. I want you in me right now! LoL

DMT: Mmmm... :-) Well it's very coozy in there. I love it!

DMT: Well bet, you know where I stay ma dude. Slide thru tonight!

I must say I never hesitate when Kickz comes a calling. We have some AMMMMMAAAAAZING SEX! Actually depending on the day and the mood, it could be some rough bang you out around my crib and I carry you to the bedroom sex (3 Saturdays ago) or some serious, sensual, "can I let my dick tickle the bottom right corner of your heart" kinda sex. Last night was the latter.

Kickz comes in gives me a kiss and this lil fucker can kiss!! Kudos! And we sit on the couch. Mind you, Damnit! while waiting (n sippin some Henny) for him to show fell asleep on the couch, he ended up being downstairs for 15 minutes callin my phone. Hey, it's 11:30! I digress... So Kickz tells me about his day as he's laying on my lap and of course wit his lil sexy ass that close to my dick in the words of Mya Angelo "Still, I RISE!" Needless to say my name changed numerous times from 'Daddy' to 'Damn Nikka' etc. Loved every moment of it.

Relishing the afterglow, we got caught up in our lil light hearted banter and the thought kinda floated thru my brain. Kickz is a really kool dude. I mean he's sexy, light hearted, care free lil papi...the antithesis of Damnit! (outside of the sexy part. Don't get it twisted!). So I told Kickz "Yo we should hang out one day. Maybe hang out in the city one Saturday, walk around, eat. Ya know, kick it." With a smile Kickz was like "Yea that would be kool, punk!" And with a kiss our plans were sealed. I drove him home at 3 am and hence why I arrived promptly to work at 10:30 (suppsed to be here at 9:30 lol) tired as all hell. Was it worth it? For Kickz ass...HELLZ FUCKIN YEA!

~Damnit!

Betrayal Revisited

As the cliché goes "Time heals all wounds." Realizing years ago that this statement is absurd to a certain degree, I can agree that time does mitigate the anger one may feel towards the betrayer. And so it goes...

I am by nature a complex man in a simple body. It takes a lot to get under my skin because very few people have the opportunity to get that close to me. The fact that said individual was able to says a lot about him, however, I believe it says more about me. No one likes to have their feelings disregarded, crushed, and their trust bro-ken in two...especially me. It only takes one time for me and I become immune to you. Cold and void of feeling. Unfortunately, with this individual I've only been able to achieve the former. I have however managed to enact these policies when dealing with said individual:

1. No all day text or long convo's. One word answers wherever possible. All comments requiring a larger message is replaced with the word 'Indeed'.

2. Rebuff efforts to meet up and chill. 'Chillin' is not a requirment and will be on my terms, not his.

3. Keep my business to myself. Yea you once were close...'once' being the operative word.

And finally...

4. I forgive you. Whole heartedly. And in doing so, I am free to befriend again having learned a valuable lesson.


Life is about the experiences you have which shape the person you are. I posess a great awareness of self. I know who I am. I am proud of who I am and I am overjoyed at the thought of who I will become as I continue down this path called Life. I am...healed.

~Damnit!

PEACE BITCHES!!!! LoL

I would not venture to say that I am 'well traveled', but I must admit that I'm not one of these katz that has never ventured out of the New York metropolitan area. Of these 50 states that are united (48 contiguous) I have visited Maine, Massachusetts, New Hampshire, Rhode Island, Conneticutt, Pensylvania, Maryland, North Carolina, Georgia, Florida, Louisiana, Nebraska, Iowa, Michigan...ummmmmmm yea that's it. Oh lest I forget my stint in Columbia with those Districts for my intellectual nutriment. I've also traveled beyond our boarders to Cancun, Cozemel, Jamaica and the Bahamas. Great huh? Seems like I've gotten around huh? Well the problem is that all these places I've been, it's always been with a parental/guardian figure. Never with 'friends'.

In the 4 years that I spent in college my spring breaks were spent at home in New Jersey...no dough. After graduating ya boy was still broke as a joke. It's a damn shame to even admit this but I have not been on vacation in FIVE (5) YEARS!!! LoL. Besides the fact that I'm not the greatest at saving, it seemed like the friends or aquantences I surrounded myself with didn't have the finances necessary to get away. So complacency set in and vacations were spent sleeping and chillin, however, 2008 has been quite eye opening for me. I've had some kind of, I don't even know what to call it...an awakening. There is so much out there that I have not allowed myself to experience because in a way I've been AFRAID to go it alone. I recently began thinking "WTF is wrong with you (insert gov't name here)?! You're not broke like that no more. Da hell is your bitch ass sitting around wasting oxygen for?!"

Having called myself everything but a child of God, I made a promiss to myself that this summer I will emerge anew. As a child I was extremely inquisitive and as a young man I will fulfill my destiny and become an explorer! I've decided to shed the shackles that have kept me stagnant. No longer will I wait nor do I require the company of friends or aquantences to partake in my journeys (although it would be nice but eh, so would a million dollars). The time has come for da kid to do tha damn thing! :-)

Having said all that, I found out thru a friend that the Taste of Chicago is next month around July 4th weekend and ya boy Damnit on yesterday booked his flight and Hotel. Yup, Imma be there tryna see what I can get into. Never been up there so this should be interesting. And as the theme of this post suggest da kid is riding dolo! First time ever. It's like the emancipation of me. Anywho, anybody out in tha Chi tryna get up and show ya boy tha city, holla!!

PEACE BITCHES!!! LoL

~Damnit!

Long Distance Relationships...Iono.

It takes a lot of patience and determination to be able to engage in a long distance relationship (henceforward LDR). I can't say that I have ever truly been in one. Sure I've entertained katz that lived in other states but upon realizing that neither of us were willing to uproot ourselves or do the traveling that is required to keep such a relationship going, the connection just dwindled into an internet friendship. But as I sit back and observe others whom are engaging in them I can't help but wonder...is it me?

I do not require much in my potential mate. Well maybe I do... A good 'career' or at least aspirations towards those ends, stimulating conversation, charisma, self and world awareness to name a few. My superficial side does require one to be attractive and well kept but what about those other things that most if not all relationships require? Those moments of staring at each other as if nothing or no one else even matters. Walking down the street just enjoying each others company, laughing at the stupid shit each other says or if either of us trips slightly on a crack in the sidewalk. Lest I forget the sex to be had on a whim. Feeling that persons breathe on the back of my neck as we drift to sleep. Waking them up to a cheese omlet, fresh home fries, bacon, biscuts w/butter and some apple sauce just to nourish my dude for a morning romp. Could I forgo all of this for weeks on end; countless cancelations that may be encountered? Rotational visits to each others homes just for a weekend we both wish would never end? I just can't imagine it.

Watching two friends engage in these LDR have caused me to question my stance against them. One whom met his bf over the internet is now in marital bliss since dude moved up here is a success story for the ages. They are inseparable. Definitely a sight to behold. The second individual whom met his interest on a social trip is just beginning his and although finding it difficult as I would imagine would be at first, is willing to engage in it with hopes that the desired outcome will lead to lasting love. In his case, dude has decided to uproot himself and move to NYC...eventually. All I can do is sit back and say wow. I wish them all the luck and well wishes in the world.

I posed this question to myself... Could Damnit! do it? The saying goes there is someone for everybody. Could my someone be 'somewhere' else and by being closed minded (stubborn I guess is the word some people call me...among others never uttered) to the experience and or challenge, I am consciously dooming myself to a world filled with celebrity sports figures running across my screen or porn stars gallivanting from clip to clip on my favorites list? What if I could humble myself to the possibilities of LDL (Long Distant Love)? Hell, it's not like my short distant love affairs have panned out as I've desired. What if I would allow myself to hop on a plane to see that 'ONE' that for those brief moments in time will seem like eternity? I mean, what if...? What...if? Iono...

Damnit!

Betrayal!

How do you handle it...? I'm not a vindictive person but sometimes I feel like getting even is necessary! I think Imma pray and go to sleep.

~Damnit!

A Month...

Time has certainly marched on since I last scribed my thoughts to this virtual notepad... It's been a month. A month since me and Lil Dred split. It's been a month (give or take) since Lil Man was removed from my home. It's been a month since I relieved myself of the stresses that had begun to encompass my life and it has been a month that which I have chose to redefine ~Damnit! For better or for worse, I am Damnit...nothing more, nothing less.

So let's see what do I have to say to the few that read my lil spot on the web. Ummmmmmm I'm still black. My cunning wit has returned but my patience for many has waned. I've been keeping to myself lately and have been trying to become comfortable going out alone in an attempt to meet new people. As charismatic as I am, I tend to be a tad bit reserved when emerced in crowds. I've gone shopping lately in an attempt to change my style. The baggy cloths have been traded in for more form fitting cloths that compliments my new found slim figure. Even in my solitude, I feel sexy. Hmmmmmm...weird huh.

The crew...well ask any of them and they will tell you that I've been noticibly absent even when present. Granted my mind has been else where, wondering, searching for a spark w/in me. It's an enlightening experience, trust.

The single life...WHO THE FUCK created this shit! I forgot how it felt to be single. To be horny and not have anyone to get it in with...to hold; to talk to. It's weird and interesting at the same damn time. Regrets, naw. I don't do those. Conversely, this has been a month I tell ya. Normalcy is returning and I will soon be back to my usual ~Damnit form. Until then I leave you all with this...( ). Whatever you can fit in those brackets, that's what I'm leaving you with. If you truly know me, you'll know what's in there. Cheers!

~Damnit!

Stress Relief...

Yea I know it's been a while for me on this shit. Have been going thru a lot lately but such is life. This post will be extremely short and will lack the creativity that my writing has been known for and you all have grown acustomed to...

Me n Lil Dred are no more. After months of turmoil and myself not being happy in our relationship, I ended it. I will not reveal details because not for nothing, I am not one to easily allow people into my mind. People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. Reasons are revealed, seasons change, and life is short. Life goes on.

After a couple of weeks filled with issues and arguments between me and Lil man, I kicked him out of my house for various reasons. A few days passed and he showed up and apologized for what happenend and took responsibility for what he did. After a long talk I agreed to give him one last chance to which he said that he is dedicated to doing what he's supposed to do and follow the rules. So we're currently cool.

The job situation is still the same. That is one stress that I am currently unable to change but things will change for the better in God's time. My heart is heavy but my head is held high.

~Damnit!

IT'S TIME: Update!

This will be short, sweet, and to the point... The CFO has been FIRED! It happened yesterday while I was at home chillin. The announcement was made today! I can't help but be giddy! I don't want to take pleasure in other peoples pain, however, shit is hitting the fan finally and I can't help but to be happy. Next on the list is my boss. She's on the chopping block too. As for me personally, my resume has been out there for 2 weeks and I'm happy to announce that I've actually had to turn down positions! GOD IS GOOD! I am prayerful and as I've stated before, I ask God to have mercy on those who've forsaken me. God is good!

Lil man has been here for a week now and things are going good. He is a work in progress but the progress has been striking. I am happy that he is here and I look forward to being a positive influience in his life. I love this boy as a older brother loves his young patawan. He will be ok.

My Super bowl shindig went well. I had 20 peeps here in my house and I proved to be a great host! Everyone seemed to have fun and everyone respected my household. I love all of my friends and aquantences! We will do it again.

All I have to say is God works in mysterious ways. I can only sit back and marvel at his greatness. I love you all! I pray for everyones sucess in the days/months to come.

~Damnit!

IT'S TIME!!!!

For nearly two years now I have been surrounded by individuals for 8+ hours a day, five times a week with an occassional Saturday who lack the integrity of a feline, the poise of a flacid penis, and the intellectual magnitude of a jelly bean! I've dealt with incompetence abound from the CFO in a mid-life crisis fucking a subordinate to the Boss that thinks her job is to avoid all accountability to the continuous insanity on display daily. However, todays events have prodded me into action. IT'S TIME!!!

Today, my friend and coworker was fired not for work performance, but for speaking out against the 'status quo'. People continuously telling you "You're not doing your job" or "You need to give more time" or "You're getting and not giving back", etc... What's worse is that when other people (of different nationality I might add...of the orient) sit there and say that they are 'overwhelmed' and get stripped of their responsibilities but I and my friend a few others are told that they don't care about our workload..."Do your JOB", it's a slap in the face. And I've had enough of the bull shyt! I have also spoken up and our division has even made suggestions on how to effectively change the department to get the work done only to get smacked down by the CFO saying "This is how it is. No changes will be made! The work has to get done so make it happen!" That was two months ago and last week we were called into a meeting to tell us that the same work is not getting done due to an inefficient process. Then the audacity of this bitch to ask for suggestions on how we could get the work done after I had worked 12 hour days for 2 weeks, six days a week only to be told it's not enough...?! FUCK THEM!

IT'S TIME!!! I began my search for a new job a few weeks ago and the quest for a new gig has hastened since last week and now today's dose of bull shit! I have an appointment with a head hunter tomorrow for a position for which I'm qualified. Hopefully this meeting will lead to an interview and ultimately exclaiming like Della Reese "Kiss my EN-TIRE ASS!!!" I am studying for the LSAT's and God willing will be enrolled in Law School (NYU here I come!) in the Fall of 09. The Bible says "He will make your enemy your footstool!" I will pray that the Lord is merciful...

~Damnit!



PS: I got my apt and it's cool. Everything is going well and I'll update ya'll later.

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~Damnit!