It was 11:30 pm last night when my phone rang out, disturbing the peace of my quiet house. I rose from the bed knowing something was wrong because everyone knows when and when not to call my phone. A number came up that was somewhat familiar to me. An old friend from my past, long time no see. The voice on the other end asked how I was, to which I replied "I'm aiight. You?" to which he responded "I'm tryna maintain too."
Him: Well I don't know if you care or not but So & So passed away tonight.
DMT: Oh my God... Damn yo. Are you ok?
Him: I'm trying. I can't believe he's dead.
See me and S&S had a falling out a couple years ago. I have not spoken to or seen him during this time. From his opening statement, I gathered that S&S passed w/out knowing that I had long forgiven him for what he did to me and I held no ill will. See in my mind what was done was done. Lifes experiences are supposed to make you wiser and with that experience I learned a valuable lesson.
This morning as I did last night, I sent up a lil prayer to my fallen old friend. No one knows why God chose now to bring you home, but it is in his will that it be done. My eyes will be shut when your funeral comes, for I want to remember you as the strong MAN you were!
See you when I get there yo! You know who you are S&S!
~Damnit!
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Sorry to hear about your friend... but there is a blessing in all this.
Wow man Sorry to hear that. You and your boy are in my prayers.
In my spiritual walk I have learned that you do not have to go to the person to ask for forgiveness or to forgive. You ask God " forgive them" or "forgive me". We as humans has not mastered that yet. We say that we forgive but not forget. That does not make sense. That means that we are still holding it. Human nature will not allow us to forget but we are not to dwell on it...I am not going to preach..but if you forgave him in your heart, then you should have peace. Hope that he had his heart right with God.....peace.
I'm sorry to hear about your friend also...but I have one question, if you didn't hold any ill feelings toward him anymore, why did you never let him know that and try to rekindle your friendship...I know whats done is done now, and he is gone, butI was just curious why?.. Tomorrow is not promised to any of us, and we just need tolive like it's out last I guess!
Um, you really employed a humoruous tone with such a serious issue. Good job on keeping it chill...
I know how you feel. I am not close to a number of old friends... The main thing is that you forgave and moved on...
My condolences for your friend. Life is so short, I tell you!
This will be my only response and I will leave it be:
Shawn- Thanks yo.
X - Thanks.
Thaddeus - I am a firm believer in forgiveness because to error is human, but forgiveness is divine. However, I also believe that you must remember the experience in order to not allow it to happen again. As the adage goes "Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me..."
YB&DL - After shit went down, he disappeared, changed numbers, address, etc. I was pissed for months because I was lied to, taken advantage of both personally, and financially not to mention my credit was put in jeopardy. After I paid off the debt, I prayed about it and left it in God's hands. "Vengence is mines saith the Lord".
Cory - Yea man it's all good.
JB - Indeed.
~Damnit!
Condolences...
you have my condolences.
My condolences to you and your friend's family. It is always sad when we loose a friend or loved one.
Pleased to hear that all is forgiven and that your heart is true.
i hope you're being strong. I cried in the cafeteria at work when i found out. Although I forgave him way back, I never got a chance to smooth things out with him after our less than amicable breakup years ago- which sucks because i cared about him a lot Please holla at me and let me know when the funeral is, if you can.
What lesson did you learn from this?
Searching for words that might comfort you. The Lord almighty giveth and the Lord almighty taketh away! It was his time and his season to go. We may not understand it and it may not be for us to understand. There is a purpose for everything!
Go forward, with a forgiving spirit. Life IS too short to let those words not fall from your lips and it means much to be voiced!
Be easy and again, my condolences!
I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your once friend. It's sad to say and know that everyone we meet will not be a permanent fixture in our lives for ever. I'm sure you go both got what you wanted/needed out of eachother while you were close. Just hold onto the good memories.
I wasn't sure of what I should have said when I read this earlier, but hopefully you can take comfort in knowing that even though issues were not fully resolved between you two, you did your best in what must have been difficult circumstances.
whoa - very strong words, and very well written. You know, sometimes life just seems to bring us these types of blows and sometimes we don't know how to respond. I'm glad you're seemingly doing what is going to work best for you!
-DTW
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